Against Me! is for me and probably for you too

For a few years, I went to shows 2 or 3 times a week (the heyday of HCT). I live in Nashville, so something’s always playing somewhere. For a few concurrent years, I worked in a venue that has live music every night.

I confess: I got a little burned out. Like all good things, you can even have too much live music.  I hate being at a bar where a unique experience is possible and I’m not genuinely appreciating it. I’m now extremely selective. Even if I really love a band, sometimes I’ll skip a show if I’ve seen them before.

I’ve been anticipating the new Against Me! album, Transgender Dysphoria Blues—so much excitement that I got the release date wrong. Then last week while disconsolately browsing, I discovered that Against Me! was already on tour and in my fair city on Sunday night. I fretted. I pouted. I am old and must be at work far too early on Monday to manage a late Sunday show. Then, miraculously, for the first time my work gave me Monday off for MLK day.

I immediately bought tickets and anticipated the Against Me! show all weekend. I invited friends. Both my first and second invitees ended up too busy working to go with me and no one spoke up in the desperate round of texts I sent at the last minute. I decided to go alone. Sigh. And then I started my period. At 8:45, before a 9:00 show, I was sitting on the couch crampy, dejected and ready to eat the cost of the tickets. But I rallied, put on a clean shirt and tie, swiped on a little lipstick, and drove over the river.

I knew I’d made the right decision immediately. Inside the door were eager young men desperate for one more ticket. Hooray, I had one! They bounced around me like happy puppies, and into the crush of the sold-out show we went. Drink in hand, I found a place to stand with pretty good view. I missed the first act because of my wibbling, but the second opening band, The Sidekicks, was great. By the time Against Me! came on, I had shifted to an excellent spot: a great view and no one crashing into me.

I’ve been to shows alone, but it’s always when I know the band, where I run into people I know. This time, I didn’t even look for people I knew. The room was packed and dark, and I settled to focus entirely on the stage. It was so good: no friends talking through unknown but good opening bands, no wrangling over who’s going to the bar. Isn’t that what happens when you’re out with friends? Even when you’re busy watching the band, there’s all this peripheral activity. Can they get you a drink? Is someone going to the bathroom? Did we lose someone? No, she’s over there talking. Is everyone okay? Is anyone too drunk? It’s always something. But at the show alone I finally felt like I was able to really pay attention and whoa, did I pick the right show to finally be present for.

Photo by: Rebecca Smeyne, from Spin.comLaura Jane Grace is charismatic and electrifying on stage. I’ve never been so engaged in a performance or felt so emotionally connected to a performer. She seems so happy to be performing and I felt so happy to be receiving that performance, grinning like a fool every time she smiled. Without hyperbole, this was a transcendent, life-changing experience for me and I couldn’t have done it any way but alone.

I rediscovered what I’d been missing from live music—not just enjoying the music and performance, but the sense that I’m living through a unique experience. A door opened to a room I’d forgotten was in my house, a space filled with feeling and music. A large, lost piece of myself has been wedged back in place.

You’re sitting there thinking, “But Cricket, what about the damn music? Is this entire post about you?”

Well, friend, here it is: The music is a fucking emotional chainsaw, ripping right through your soul. The songs tap straight into a base sense that something isn’t right in the world, in ourselves. The rage, isolation and despair that so many people feel comes through the music, raw and incredibly intense.

The songs are new on this album, but many have been performed for awhile now. The audience seemed to know all of them from shows or advance album copies or the magic of the internet. After the show, jonesing for more, I spent an hour on YouTube finding recent performances so I could get more of that potent fix.  (Here’s some for you: Dead Friend, Transgender Dysphoria Blues, Unconditional Love.)

As I write this, I have the album on repeat. Transgender Dysphoria Blues is a love letter to those dark places that you manage to rise above. Like all Against Me! albums, it speaks to my rage and sense of injustice, but this time it’s more personal, because this album leaves me feeling understood. It’s a spectacular feat for a songwriter to take something as personal as gender dysphoria and make it universally accessible.

Laura Jane Grace managed to put hope into every single song. I wept through my first full listen to the album and came through ready to get up and fight, get up and face the world again. I feel an undercurrent of joy through all the bleakness of this album. But then again, after seeing Grace on stage being as she was born to be, experiencing her incredibly joyous energy, maybe some of her joy stuck with me.

Transgender Dysphoria Blues is available for a listen on NPR.

You can buy it everywhere now, but I suggest buying it from the band.

I’m living in a country music graveyard

Because Nashville is, well, Nashville, everything in this video after the 2:45 mark was filmed in my backyard.  Not my metaphorical, my neighborhood, kind of backyard, but literally the property that I own that is behind my house.

The grave is still there, you can clearly see the rectangle outline of it.  I get great pleasure of pointing it out to guests, that it’s a grave, and then not explaining anything else to why there’s a grave.  Now the secret is out, it’s where I made Shooter bury himself in my back 40.

It’s a beautiful day in the neighborhood

Okay, well it’s actually grim and rainy in my neighborhood, but it does smell more like spring than winter so that’s something. It is however and beautiful day for music being created.  Austin Lucas and Amanda Shires are both celebrating birthdays today.

Austin is probably considered country by the punk folks and punk by the country folks, but he’s a really shockingly good blend of both.  And we all know there’s plenty of that to go around, but Austin’s brand is exceptional, so if you haven’t discovered him already, get to it.  He’s on tour in Europe soon with Glossary, so even more of the world will hopefully discover, embrace and adore him like I do. (Buy directly from Last Chance Records.)

Amanda “Pearl” Shires is perhaps one of the sweetest people I’ve ever met.  It doesn’t hurt that she sings like an angel, writes great songs and is charming and funny too.  I’ve never seen anyone introduced to her music (or her personally) that wasn’t completely taken with her.  I Love her last two albums, but most especially the song “Mariann Leola” off West Cross Timbers, because it makes me remember my own grandmother and feel both weepy and joyful.  Even the saddest of her songs uplift me in someway, even if it’s just knowing someone else once felt the same way.  She has a new album in the works and I can’t hardly wait for it!  (Buy from iTunes or Amazon.)

Pork-belly Futures and Vestal Virgins

Thom Yorke in a long Guardian UK interview last Saturday (February 23) said:

“We were so into the net around the time of Kid A,” [Yorke] says. “Really thought it might be an amazing way of connecting and communicating. And then very quickly we started having meetings where people started talking about what we did as ‘content’. They would show us letters from big media companies offering us millions in some mobile phone deal or whatever it was, and they would say all they need is some content. I was like, what is this ‘content’ which you describe? Just a filling of time and space with stuff, emotion, so you can sell it?”

Having thought they were subverting the corporate music industry with In Rainbows, [Yorke] now fears they were inadvertently playing into the hands of Apple and Google and the rest. “They have to keep commodifying things to keep the share price up, but in doing so they have made all content, including music and newspapers, worthless, in order to make their billions. And this is what we want? I still think it will be undermined in some way. It doesn’t make sense to me. Anyway, All Watched Over by Machines of Loving Grace. The commodification of human relationships through social networks. Amazing!”

I used to work for a corporation, where one day we writers woke up and found we were “content providers.” The corporate view seems to be that the Internet is a marketing vessel that requires words and video to be poured in, or a god-like entity that requires a continuing stream of sacrificial text/video, created by vestal virgins who spin content out of straw.

It’s like two web worlds live side by side, where one is flooded with corporate “content” to deliver “meaning” and edutainment to markets. The other is merely technology used by people who are making and sharing meaning, art, and connections.

Saying No to Commodification: Nix on Pork Belly Futures.
Lord help me, I never performed well as a vestal virgin and hope never again to work as a “content provider.” I’m encouraged by every sign that the making of music and good stories will continue to resist commodification and that people will find their own ways to share art and connections.

Also I prefer plain ol’ bacon to pork belly, because so many places just don’t prepare pork belly correctly

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Here’s some amazing things that hopefully you didn’t miss but just in case you did:

Shaky Knees Music Festival – Line up includes The Lumineers, Band of Horses, Drive By Truckers, Jim James Band, Gary Clark Jr., Dr. Dog, Lucero, Murder by Death and Robert Ellis.  And who doesn’t want to go Atlanta in spring?

Chris Pureka on Daytrotter – I’m not shy about admitting my soft spot for insanely hot, lesbian folk musicians, but Chris has got even more going on than that.  Her voice is amazing, her lyrics smart and deep and there’s such a gripping emotion in everything she does that it’s worth giving her a listen even if you don’t usually go in for folk music.

The Road Most Traveled – Chuck Ragan’s excellent compilation.  I know it’s old news to some of you but I’m just getting to it now and if you missed it you should be getting you one too.

Bruce Springsteen Playing Max’s Kansas City In 1972 – I still maintain that Nebraska is one of the best albums of all time.  And if you think you don’t like Bruce because you didn’t like Born in the USA when it came out, maybe you better try this and see how you feel now.

Well that took just about forever

I know, I know, it’s been like a year, right? A year of few posts and many promises. But really we are almost there. I’m settling the last details incrementally. And doing this slow, slow, slow rolling launch of the new stuff. In the meantime, there’s like a million little things I should be telling you about.

First up, you all met Mick, right? He’s an asshole [So very true–Mick], but I kind of love him, which hopefully means you will too. I didn’t bring him in for a dissenting viewpoint or anything. I mean his musical tastes mostly mirror mine but I expect he’ll like things I won’t, and vice versa.

Also, I’ve been messing around with the RSS feed, so I am sorry if you have gotten posts multiple times, or not at all, or in some funky order, or all garbled. I expect it’s all fixed now and flowing smoothly. If you haven’t been getting updates, well, you wouldn’t know, would you? Make sure you don’t miss Mick’s recent posts on Amanda Shires and Waylon Jennings, or Daisy’s recent podcast post, or my post about DS Yancey.

Have y’all been over to Southern Brand? It’s awesomesauce. Not just music, but books, food and just plain livin’. There’s a nice boy, somewhere down South here, writing this all up for you. Go check him out, he’s definitely someone you want to be porch sittin’ and drinking with come summer time.

I think right now everyone in the twang world is at SXSW. Well, everyone but me. East Nashville is like a ghost town, as all the musicians have headed south. Even worse they are sending me text messages about the delicious food they are eating and all the fun they are having. Next year I am going, even if I have to hitch-hike. I expect the tacos alone will make it worth it.

Oh hey we have a Facebook fan page going on. I don’t know exactly what I am going to do with it yet, but come be our fan. We are your fans, so it’s only fair to keep it mutual.

I am sure I had like a hundred other things I wanted to tell you, but my back hurts and I don’t have to work at the bar tonight, so I’m might just stop typing and go pour myself a drink. [Just one more thing I wanted to add: Ryan Bingham is releasing a new album soon, and High Noon Saloon was nice enough to offer up his first album, “Dead Horses.” It’s essentially a shorter, less cleaned up, “Mescalito”, but the first track(and one that isn’t on that album), “Big Country Sky,” is worth the download. I actually bought this album at one of Bingham’s first L.A. shows and became a fan immediately. You will too. –Mick]